it’s hard to be an emo
damn, sometimes i think it’s really hard to be an emo. why? i’m very sensitive person. someone says “boo” to me and i start panic and crying and i go and hide my head into the nearest hole. but i don’t se myself like an emo. why not? because i don’t wear black clothes and i don’t like to listen my chemical romance. and i stopped cutting myself a while ago. but today i feel like i’m gonna scream. i feel traped somewhere, where is no way out. and if i could get to the edge of that, there is noone waiting for me to pull me up. i really feel like i’m going crazy today … like something is choking me, i cannot breathe, i cannot pull myself out of this. i dont even have a dog to go on the walk with. sometimes, i really wish him. something soft down at my legs, when i go to sleep at night … just because i afraid to be alone …
Whatever you do don’t do suicide. I’m an emo and I’ve cut myself multiple times, but not too many times. You don’t have to wear black clothes and listen to my chemical romance, but emos most likly don’t wear bright clothes. All you need is friends, because you sound really paranoid, but everyone in this world has problems and probably don’t even know it. I think I need angermanagement. I mean these words: Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one’s definition of your life, but define yourself.
hey emochi, i’m sorry i didn’t reply before. i’ve cut myself a little more times to say it was not too many. but i’ve quit. my hands are full of schratches and scarps. this is one thing that will follow me through all my life. but everything is part of me. i’m not shame of that, i’m just proud on myself that i’m out of that. i wear black clother and that’s the color i like the most. good or bad? who knows. friedns. don’t know what to say. when you really need them, they dissapear. i have a boyfriend and he is all i need. i’ve made myself a victim but now i’m out of that. i don’t cut myself anymore. but i still have some days when i would just like to cut everything that i see. but it’s cool now. i still need friends. that’s why i have internet. most of my e-friends are here in cases, when noone of my old friends wasn’t. i feel better now.